Uncentered

Thats exactly how i feel. Uncentered. Out of equilibrium. Shaken.

Its amazing. A simple, small thing may mean nothing to one person, but to another person it can mean everything. It makes me upset til the verge of crying, it makes me want to throw things and yell and scream at that person. But instead I keep it all in and don't say anything. Not the best of actions, but i definately don't want to be spoiling for an arguement. So here I am, left out of my equilibrium.

Unfortunately I still have unanswered questions. The main one that runs through my head is "Do they still matter?" When I try to answer this question, I feel that I'm rationalising the answer in my head as well as my heart. Even after all this time. It shouldnt be the case. I should know the answer, both head and heart. BUT WHY everytime I slam into this thing I consider the "WALL", I feel doubt.

Wedding Photos

Here's Pictures of the Wedding of Karla and Rommel .. Best of Luck Guys!


The Newest Del Rosario Family!



Baby Samuel



Samuel's Brother - Jordan



The Bridal Party



Bridesmaids - Me and Leanne


*** FOR MORE PHOTOS - Please visit my Flickr link on the side bar! ***

Uni Procrastination Piccys

Instead of attending the lecture on monday, the four of us procrastinated in Deeh's lil car. Just sat there and tried to sleep.. hahahaa Impossible!

On tuesday instead of attending the tutorial for CFM, I went to Quakers Hill Inn to eat "Roast of the Day" for only $6.50!! Bargain! Mostly stoked about eating baked Pumpkin! My buzzer was my FAVE NO# 6! **READ PRINT!** And No, that is not a beer! Its a Lemon, Lime and Bitters .. No Vodka!

Finally, presenting piccy's of my EGG!!

Sorry for the delay, .. but I've finally got the piccy's of my egg "Egg-cite" .. hahah well that's what the packaging is called ...

Follow through..

Following on from the previous blog .. the week did not get much better.

Tuesday 6th Sept:
My glasses broke during my evening class so I couldn't drive home at all. Snapped in half they were. So I called my Papa to pick me up that night, and he said that my car brakes were faulty. Just GREAT. So the next morning..

Wednesday 7th Sept:
6:30am I went to the Holden dealer on Church Street Parramatta. I drove very carefully, and the man said that there was a chance for the car not to be fixed that day. Oh No! So they took it for a test drive and FOR SURE, they took the car off my hands for the day. *sigh* No car for one day. Went to Parramatta at 7am! So early to I had a coffee and walked around. Went to the accountant, went shopping and went home via train and bus. Public transport. *sigh* I did however get my car back that day!

Thursday 8th Sept:
Another early day. Work at 8.30am til 12.30pm. Which got stretched to 1.30pm. Stuck at Layby - No one turned up!

Friday 9th Sept:
Again EARLY DAY! Work at 8am to 4pm in the cash office. So tired.

Saturday 10th Sept:
Work

Sunday 11th Sept:
Work

Monday 12th Sept:
OFFICIALLY MID SEM BREAK - Went to uni for the day. Worked on an assignment. Great. Didn't get much done.

Tuesday 13th Sept:
6.30am Back at the Holden dealer. This time round it was a 20,000km service and to complain about the fuel gauge. They checked and connected.. and there flew $100 of papa's money. Crap. More coffee at 7am at Parramatta Westfields. Saw Bryan at Vodafone and Peter came and met up with me - we ate lunch together. Its been a while since we both were there together.

Wednesday 14th Sept:
I can't remember what I did last Wednesday!!! OH yeh Library to study some more. Went home early because Leanne was home sick.

Thursday 15th Sept:
Working yet again

Friday 16th Sept:
Working 8am to 4pm in the Cash Office. Early night due to my cousin's wedding the next day!

Saturday 17th Sept:
ONE BIG DAY! Important Notes:
8am Hairdresser appointment
10.30am Drive to Rooty Hill for "getting ready" camera shots
1pm Church Wedding
4pm Pictorials at Nurragingy Reserve
6pm Reception
9pm Annabelle's 18th Birthday Party

Piccy's to be posted soon! Stay tuned.

Sunday 18th Sept:
Recovery from previous day and went to uni to study for exam.

Monday 19th Sept:
MID SEM BREAK OFFICIALLY OVER!!! - Where did it all go?

If You Were Me ...

If you were me .. you'd definately be tired to!

All I want to do is sleep.

Procrastination is my goal until my class starts at 1pm today. And that's exactly what I'm doing.

I can't believe I woke up at 6.30am to get ready for uni for my 9am class, for no reason at all. Lecturer came late. 9.40am to be exact. I should have just left my house at 9am instead. Dammit. I could have slept in for an extra hour or so. Instead of leaving at 9.15am, I sat there with my friend until the stupid man came. Let me tell you, I was not impressed. I should have just left myself. But what would I do for 3.5 hours until my next class?

I can't be bothered doing homework, so I dont know what's the point in sticking around for my classes. The only reason I can come up with is.. ATTENDANCE - It does make a difference. Slightly. But I'll still lose some points. *Sigh* After everything else that has happened. I'm too fatigued to actually make a slight attempt at homework. I feel like a zombie just walking around uni.

Tomorrow isn't going to be much better. I need to change my TFN status for the jobs. Need to go to Target and make a deposit on a layby. Need to go to the accountant and hand in signed papers. Need to exercise.

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Even today I'm still burning. Daymned YOU.

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I give up. I'm going to crawl into my car to sleep.

Snooze .. ZzzZzz !

Again, there has been a lapse in my blogging days. I have been absolutely busy as a bee! My weeks just seem to go round and round in circles. Monday and Tuesdays, I'm at uni, and if I'm not at uni, then I'm at work.

I've finally finished one of my essays. Thank GOD! I planned to do the essay last week on Wednesday and Thursday, but due to my lack of motivation - I got NOTHING DONE! So, after work on Friday night, Saturday and Sunday night - I managed to get the daymned essay done! Mind you, I had wake up pretty early on those very same days for work at 8am. *sigh* .. Now its Monday and I'm ALL so very tired.

I want to sleep but I can't. There is no time. I'm just waiting for Peter to finish his group meetings so we can get a light bite to eat.

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I went to Blacktown Westpoint today with my uni friends. We went to the coffee club to eat lunch. A little of bit of a spoiler on my new diet - eat less but healthy - which is okay. Spoiling myself is the only way to keep me sane. I have been craving for chocolates, mud cake, and chips. But I had an open grill and an iced tea. Very filling. But not stuffed.

We had time to kill to we went shopping, just browsing. *Hrmpz* Can't believe I saw HER. I'm still angry at HER and everything in regards to HER. And its something that I can't EVER LET GO - lets get that straight right now! She was with her boyfriend (?!) and she saw me, left the shop and bolted down the escalators. Daymned RIGHT! It's been a year and man, I'm still ready to rip her hair out!

I also saw Anton today at Westpoint. All scruffy looking - but gotta still love the guy! He noticed that I had put on some weight, which makes me want to put more effort into getting in to better shape. Maybe start exercising or something! But all in all, it was really good to see him. He did inform me that he won't be making it to Annabelle's 18th. Aww!

We then went to Officeworks at Blacktown. Of course, we saw Jasper. I decided that i didn't want to spend anything so i took in my phone and $2. I bought a much needed yellow highlighter.

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I bought an EGG! Only available at Big W. Its called "Egg Nite". VERY VERY GOOD. Its my nightlight now. Its changes colour and its every soothing to when i sleep at night. I took photos, but I still gotta post them up! Everyone thinks its pretty crazy when I tell them about my egg, maybe because they haven't seen it yets!

Time to go! PETER'S HERE!